It tells me how it feels to be new

I have returned

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 06:01:56 GMT

Oh I know you all have been dying for me to post again. My life is so freakin interesting. Alright, which direction should this go?
Random Thoughts
1. It's strange how someone can make you really happy yet so afraid at the same time. I hate feeling like a girl, it's lame.
2. I'm moving tomorrow to South Austin bitches. No more driving through downtown all the time. Hooray! My 2 bestest friends better come visit me really soon before I lose it. I miss you guys. And Dan...god dammit...
3. So, I changed my major to commercial music. It's only 2 years and I'll only really be happy working with music, so I figured it was the thing to do.
4. It's sad when people you really liked won't talk to you anymore. It's even worse when you know it's your own fault and there's no way to fix it. I've been thinking about this for a while and I realize that it has happened a couple times now. I think I should change a the way I do a few things. I mean, I start out with good intentions but just fuck it up for reasons that are way to complicated to explain. It freaks me out because I think my karma is pretty bad right now and this is the perfect opportunity for everything to blow up in my face. I'm just waiting for it, secretly hoping that karma is a load of shit.
Wish me luck.
:0P

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 03:55:08 GMT

So I now have new sister. It's very strange because now I have a sister who is 20 years younger than me. It makes me feel really old...

May can not come soon enough. I can't wait to get a house with K and T. I'm excited not to have to pay $150 for cable and internet and a billion dollars for electricity every month. And, ooooh, my very own washer and dryer. Sweet jesus.

ALSO, I bought the new Cure cd today and it is magnificent. I smiled the whole way home. :0)

The End

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 22:37:53 GMT

Yay The Faint was so good!!!
The End

MY SO CALLED LIFE

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 22:26:23 GMT

THE FOLLOWING IS A TEST OF THE EMERGENCY BROADCASTING SYSTEM
DO NOT BE ALARMED
THIS IS ONLY A TEST SO CALM THE FUCK DOWN
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP (etc)

*sob*

I heart Austin and all the fucking shows

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 03:32:51 GMT

Saturday: q and not u
Nov 20: THE FAINT
I have probably been to more shows in the 4 months I've lived in Austin than ever before. I am going to see one of my favorite bands in less than 3 weeks. It will surely be amazing.
I think I've changed a lot since I moved up here. I'm a lot more independent. I don't think I "need" people around all the time like I did before. That might have something to do with the fact that there are actually people here. In Corpus it felt like when you found someone you liked, you needed to hold on to them for dear life because there are so few neat people there. It's amazing to drive through a city on your way to/from work/school/wherever, look around, and like what you see and how it makes you feel to be there. I know a lot of people have their issues with Austin, and it is certainly far from perfect, but I love it. I love the people I've met and the friends I've made. I love that I don't feel stifled. I am happy and that's really nice.

The End (you may now puke)

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 23:01:37 GMT

I made vegetarian king ranch chicken last night and it was awesome! It was a little difficult finding substitutions, but it came out tasting like the real thing. Those veg. chicken patties are a lifesaver.
I am the vegetarian cooking master!
The End

PS I'm going to Corpus for Thanksgiving, watch out kids.

We's all gonna die

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 20:37:41 GMT

CNN reported a poll today on whether people believe Bush is a uniter or a divider: 48% said uniter, 48% said divider. Well HMM...
American troops lost a whole bunch (380 tons) of explosives in Iraq today. That's right, lost. They can not find them. Apparently they "failed to secure" them. Keep up the good work.
Kerry's campain brought out the big guns today. That's right, Bill Clinton (big with the single ladies, seriously). He's going to be campaining for Kerry this week in battleground states. Watch out now.
I can't believe election day is in 8 days. We are so screwed.

I need to stop watching the news.

Is that a condom in your pocket...

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 03:25:35 GMT

So I walked around all day at school with a condom in my back pocket. I only vaguely remember how it got there. All I can say is that it's strawberry flavored. Yum. At least that's what the package says. Ahem.
Anyway.
I am kicking all kinds of ass at school. Nothing but A's (and one C). Yay me. Who woulda thunk me smart?
Clinic is tomorrow, I am excited. I bought my ticket to The Faint today. Now all I have to do is wait. The days will feel like...well, slightly longer than normal days.
Working at a salon is the best thing ever. I can get my hair cut and colored for 10 bucks. It is a dream come true.
Midget is finally learning to behave. Thank you spray bottle. You have saved my shoes.
The End.
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le sigh

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 05:16:52 GMT

It's midnight and I'm almost unconscious. I just finished 2 hours of German homework and my head hurts.
All I watch on TV now is The West Wing, Real Time w/Bill Maher, CNN, and Sex and the City. I need S&tC to take the edge off the politics.

My dog is the devil but she's so cute. Yet, having this puppy has only strengthened my aversion to having children. It would only end badly, probably with me in jail. Anyone who knows me knows this is true.

I seriously need to make more friends in Austin. I'm so lonely! Not really, just bored. Sometimes, and that's too often.
My so-called best friend refuses to visit me. "I'm tired" is not a legitimate excuse, especially if the visit isn't supposed to be for a while. Who would want to spend Halloween in pooey College Station anyway? Not I.

God my life is incredibly boring. I'm sorry lj friends. :0P

Sorry? Sorry is a boardgame.

Thu, 30 Sep 2004 03:41:32 GMT

Fuck you. Don't get pissed at me because I won't subscribe to a magazine I don't want just so you can win a vacation to Mexico.
Updates

Badass job. I'm the new part time receptionist at Wet and I love it. The people are cool and it's good pay. Happy birthday me.

Boyfriend. EWWWW why? Whatever, you're awesome.

The End

Wyatt Fucking Earp

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 00:53:15 GMT

So last night I had a dream I was dating James Spader and then left him for Alice Cooper. I have no idea what this means and it's a little disturbing. If anyone knows of a good shrink, I'd appreciate it.

I went to ACL this weekend. It was fun but I got burned and tanned and it makes me sad. I can't even remember the last time this has happened. All my years of avoiding the sun for nothing. *sigh*

I bought a playstation 2 the other day. What a nerd. But it's so much fun! Except I think I frightened Scott with my enthusiasm. I like to win, what can I say? Don't hate me. :0/

OH I almost forgot. I got a job bitches! Yay! I'm not going to end up hungry on the street begging for quarters so I can buy vodka to numb the pain! Yay! Thank god, just when I was getting desperate...

AGH

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 17:51:20 GMT

I'm sick. What the fuck, this isn't supposed to happen. If I'm sick on my birthday people are going to pay, with their LIVES!

I have to go to Corpus tomorrow AGAIN. I feel like I was just there. But this time it's cool cause I'm going to pick up my new puppy!!! Yay! It's a little mini chihuahua. Thank you Kayty!

...The End...

tears

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 03:11:20 GMT

Why do Engine Down and Death Cab for Cutie have to play on the same night? It hurts me. *sigh*

So far there are 10 shows I want to go to between now and November, 5 of them in October. I would really like to go to them all. I need a show buddy. I am currently accepting applications.

Erin, I want you to come down this weekend. It's my birthday, come on. Pleeeeaaasseee! I'll give you candy.

tsk tsk

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 02:29:44 GMT

Well, I must say, I am very disappointed in you all.

Today's story is: Rachel really needs a job but keeps finding excuses not to go look for one

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 19:51:08 GMT

Every day after school, I drive down Guadalupe and think, "Hmm, I should park and pick up applications because I have no money and I'm going to starve and the bill collectors have started calling me". And every day, after I complete that thought, another one pops up: "Oh damn, there's no parking. And it really is hot. I'll just go home and study for a couple hours till it calms down and cools off". The sad thing is, just as I was giving up today, I see like 5 parking spots but ignore them and continue home. I never study, I never go back. I sit and watch TV or jerk around on the computer. Duh.
My problem is I've always had my jobs handed to me, I never had to go look for one. Now that this requires actual effort, I am failing miserably. And what's even worse is that I've ask my friends to do it for me. Man I am lame.
But writing this has somewhat motivated me to get off my fat ass and drive down to the drag and beg with big puppy dog eyes for a job. And get some bubbletea while I'm at it. Dammit I think I might just do that, after it cools off a little.

Question of the day: Do you have to believe in god to be healed by one of those faith healer types? Because if they really do have awesome powers, it shouldn't matter right?
Highlight of the day: Engine Down has befriended me on myspace. Yes, I am now 1 of 1600 others. *coughpatheticcough*

So I'm not dead...

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 22:18:04 GMT

Thank god. Last night was fantastic.
Learned to make sushi. Kinda. It was good. I am the master rice maker...Scott you are a disgrace.
Beer makes things so much more fun. I'm sorry to those who disapprove, get over it.
Saw Engine Down at Emo's. They are the coolest guys for this reason: some lame-o in Houston stole their van and trailer, taking everything they had. So they rented a van, borrowed Brazil's equipment and played an awesome show. It was the best show I've seen since I've been here, except of course for The Cure. I could go on about this forever, but I won't. I'll just say that I now I can't stop listening to them, and you were right, they are freaking hot.
My long-lost Petey Hickey has resurfaced. That's really exciting, I hope to talk to him soon.
The End.
PS: Next time I post something like I did last night, slap me please. Thanks.

Warning: This is an emopost.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 23:21:36 GMT

Engine Down...why? Houston sucks.
Today was the first time since I moved that I thought about going home. But would that make things any better?
Things I have considered doing today: 1. Free love. Bad idea. STD's frighten me. 2. Drugs. Don't have any... 3. Drinking. Promised I wouldn't. But that was yesterday, hmm, interesting... 4. Going home to Corpus. No. It would just be worse there and I'd probably end up in a bath tub full of my own blood. Plus I have school now. *sigh*
So I'm probably just going to go somewhere and study. Maybe I'll get a movie. Or maybe I'll cry myself to sleep. (that was a joke). First I have to get out of bed and take a shower.
Sorry about this, but I had to vent somehow...

Blah blah blah

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 20:36:26 GMT

I started school this week and it's pretty cool. ACC reminds me of the high school in Pretty In Pink. It made me smile. I am a dork.

Phantom Planet is going to be at Emo's on thurs. and I really want to go. I don't know if I am though. Then sunday is Engine Down. Mwahahaha. I can't wait. The new cd is yummy. I'm glad they're playing at emo's...inside. Ohhh yeahhh.

I still haven't satisfied my craving for tofu. I tried yesterday but it didn't work out. Maybe I'll just go to Zen, though I'd rather not, but it's better than thinking about tofu every five seconds.

I could do that now, but I'll probably just end up watching TV. Oh well.
Wiedersehen.

death to snowboarders

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 20:37:00 GMT

So I am back from Corpus. I'm very happy to be home. It could've been a disaster, but luckily Scott was there to save the day. :0)
The highlights: Eating Vietnam. It was so yummy (thanks Tanner).
Eating Hua Tai and discovering they have the best fucking tofu.
Listening to Scott and Tanner trade spider horror stories. It was hilarious.
The girls bathroom at IHOP. That was fun. It's a tradition that should be continued.
Getting to San Marcos and watching Shredder, then coming up with our own idea for a horror movie. It's going to be the best movie ever. Long Wong rocks.
Oh yeah...the Xtreme gulp Dr. Peppers that stay cold for 6 hours and glow in the dark. I thought it was only possible in dreams. Thank you seven eleven.

So that's it. Austin is where my heart is, and I don't want to leave again for a while.

I SAW THE CURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 23:39:48 GMT

This has been the best weekend of my life. Why, you ask? Well because I saw the fucking Cure that's why.
We were SO close. We had really good seats. And as soon as they walked on stage I started sobbing. Throughout the entire first song and for short moments during the rest of the show I was crying so hard I couldn't move. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen or heard. I screamed every word to every song they played, as well as several "I love you's" and "I want to have your babies". There really are no words to describe how I feel except that it was the best concert I have ever been to and I will never forget it. I want more. Please tour again. :0)

The other bands were really good too. Mogwai deserved the main stage. I had so much fun. Scott you should've been sitting with us. This is getting long. The rest is for me to obsess over. See ya.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 01:39:34 GMT

It actually doesn't feel like hell on earth outside. 82 degrees in August? What's going on? Why do I always talk about the weather on lj? Wow, this is really awkward...
You know those songs where, once you hear the first second of it, you just have to listen to the whole damn thing? Yeah, Mr. Brightside is one of those songs.
I like the new Faint cd more and more every time I hear it. Can't help but love his dirty sexual lyrics. "In the beginning there was semen..." Hot damn.
The Cure is in 2 days. Jeezy creezy, I should bring an extra pair of panties.
My two bestest friends are coming to see me this weekend. I can't wait!
One day I will have a complete thought...but for now I must clean my apartment.

Oh yeah, alcohol is no excuse to be a bastard (you know who you are).

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 06:52:54 GMT

6 days until the Cure. There have been a few problems along the way...hopefully everything will be sorted out tomorrow. If I don't go to that concert I don't know what I'll do. I'd sell my left foot to see that show dammit. Ticketmaster you suck.
I'm dying my hair right now. I do not enjoy doing this...but I have to. I have to look hot for Clap!Clap!. Hehe. *cough*
So I'm going to Corpus next week. I figured I should go before school starts. I don't really want to, but I'm bringing a friend so it'll be fun.
Prepare yourselves.

Fun time in San Antonio

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 15:51:23 GMT

Last night was a whole lot of fun. :0)

Rachel + the power to buy her own alcohol = a really drunk Rachel.
Silly San Antonians (or whatever), I thought you were supposed to card people when you asked "over or under".

If I went into detail about last night, it would take forever. So here is the short version:
Went to San Marcos and ate badass sesame tofu. It was the best thing I have ever had. Fuck chicken.
Went to San Antonio. Didn't get carded and was given the awesome power to purchase my own drinks. I Drank. Quite a bit.
Downstairs there was a goth club.
Oh yes. A goth club.
Sometimes man, I just gotta dance. And I danced my ass off. It was amazing. Gothic interpretive dance is the best dancing anyone could see while inebriated.
Went to someone's apartment and swam in the pool. Swimming is really fun when the sun isn't there to spoil it.
Sang to The Ugly Organ (every song) on the way home, gracing everyone's ears with my beautiful talent.
Slept like a baby.
Clap!Clap!, you guys were great. :0)
Good times...

PS: The Moving Units

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 19:28:10 GMT

It's 2:15 in the afternoon and I'm awake. That is new...I'm kinda bummed. There's nothing to do before like 7. I guess I could clean or something.
How can it be 106 degrees! That's way too hot. I'm staying away from the windows.
Hehe I just remembered I had a dream (or nightmare really) last night that I got a tan. I was walking with someone to do something and it was realllllly sunny. By the time we got back I was super dark. Tans are just fine and dandy for anyone else, but I don't like them on me. It looks funny. Thank god it will never happen in real life. I don't tan, I melt.

I need a job.

Written Apologies

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 20:09:53 GMT

Sorry about the emo-ness of my previous entries. That's what happens when I don't leave the apartment. Hopefully everything is better now, but who knows. Just remember, don't go into that fucking house.
So what if I quote Eddie Izzard all the time. It's funny. Especially when it doesn't apply and people have no idea what I'm talking about. I need to amuse myself somehow...
I want bubbletea.
That is all.